wow. yeah, it has been a long time since i've written. quite a long time. becker and i are done with. have been for months. i still care for him dearly, but i dont know what i ever saw in the first place. i was so wrapped up and so blinded. i loved him, but for nothing. i basically never see him anymore, and i should remedy that. at least talk to him, but their just isnt time anymore.

i've got a shannon now, and life is wonderful. chaotic in family, but otherwise, things couldnt be better.

i need to get out more. need to do something. my school work is falling. and i dont know why. i have just stopped caring. i work hard yes, but i just dont care enough to make sure i do perfectly like before. i dont know what to do.

i'll work on it along with a bunch of other things. *sigh* gotta get working.

things to do. people to see, showers to take, so i'll be off. *J*